Make A Change

There's so much more to do than to follow rules. I wanna break rules but I need more courage! haha.. Or should I say I always wanted to do something weird but I didn't because I wanna save up all the trouble and I didn't have the courage. Now my life is freaking bored cos I'm living the so-called "right way". I wanna try weird stuffs but, again, I need the courage. The most recent example is about my contact lens. I bought a pair of contact lens online, I chose purple hurricane (hurricane pattern + purple colour) cos hurricane sounded good. I thought it would be nice and outstanding. Guess what?? I didn't know they are the extra large size lens. The lense make my eyes look fake. AND I need to do some eye makeup to look a bit better. See what I mean?? The trouble and courage of doing weird stuffs. So, I wanna be weird and I'm weird now but I don't have the courage to walk out of the house, even if I did I'll look at the floor most of the time. Sigh..

Today, I've learnt something more about hard work, faith and confidence. I know nothing comes out of nothing. The simplest example, the only reason why my parents are still paying for my food and all the other expenses is because I'm studying. I'm doing something and that's why I'm getting something in return. Next, faith. Faith means believing in something without seeing it (this is the hardest one). Obviously I don't have that. Finally, I can only be confident if I first learn how to think positively. I'm not an optimist, that's very obvious too. These are the areas that I have to work on a lot. Okay.. I'm gonna keep reminding myself to achieve the above-mentioned qualities.. =)