Part of Life

Life isn't treating me good. So many unsolved problems. Have I not tried hard enough? Or it's just how things should be? Sometimes, people misunderstand and I can't explain myself. Lately, I don't even want to tell anyone about anything, because telling stories can sometimes be quite tiring. Although I don't want to talk now, but I still hope there's someone that I can turn to anytime. I have good friends that I can trust but sometimes they are just not the ones that could make me talk. Some facing tougher times than me, some too busy to even reply my message, some make me feel like they were never listening to me and a conversation always end with me becoming a listener.

"There is always a way out for those clever enough to find it."
- Rick Riordan, The Titan's Curse

It's happening.. Again.

Merry Christmas!!!! I haven't posted anything for such a long time. I'm too lazy to blog about the good stuffs because blogging means playing back the past and crack my head to transfer everything into words. As for the bad stuffs, I don't remember la and don't want to remember. Hahahahhaha!!! This year I celebrated Christmas with my colleagues. Although one day earlier, but it was FUN. My colleagues are funny people that would just crap, crap and crap! Very entertaining. We ordered a huge turkey for lunch, exchanged presents and some dance at the end. I have a problem here. Each time there's a party or gathering, I'll be so excited. When the party reaches its climax, I'll feel like something will be taken away from me. When the party finally ends, it's all gone. I want a breakthrough eh..

I've learnt that the mind is really a powerful thing. I've tried and I can let go whatever that's bothering me in 15 minutes. It's like getting up in the morning. The moment the alarm clock rings, it's "aiyooooo... How I wish it's only 3am"! In fact, it only takes 3 seconds to get out of bed but we always choose to buy more time. The first step is always the hardest but it's the only way to reach the second step. It's the same concept here. The mind is a powerful thing but the heart is weak. That's why it's always "you broke my heart" and not "you broke my mind"! right? People normally fall into temptations because they failed to guard their heart with their mind.

Okay.. Lets move on to my story about college and work. I was in Brickfields College for the past 4 and the half years doing ICSA. That's veryyyyy long. I should only be there for 2 years, but I told myself 4 years, and still there's an extra 6 months. Haha!! I just sat for my last paper not long ago and hopefully I'll make it. PleaseLetMePassBecauseIWantToGraduate!! College was not fun, the amount of students can be as little as 2 students a class and will never exceed 30. And I ate nasi lemak and banana cakes for dinner most of the days I was in college. Gosh.. I only enjoyed the last 1 and a half years because only then I had more classmates. But.. There's also advantage of having so few students. Maybe God knew that I was a no-brainer, so I was given Lecturers that would be concentrating on me all the time. Haha!! Because of that, I'm working now. Got a nice job, good working environment and good colleagues. I do not have a plan, at least not now and will go where life takes me. There's so much that I wanna do but I know it's not time yet. Just wait!

Anyway, Christmas party was quite sad because of my bad habit of getting sad at the end of everything. I can never handle the ending properly. That's what happens when the mind and heart do not coordinate well..

2013 is on its way! It's a good start for me and hopefully, for all my loved ones. Best of luck! There's one song that I must share. Simple and sweet!

I Have, but I Don't

Friendship is priceless. But it's weird to have times where I couldn't find anyone to talk to when I needed someone. It's very sad to be in this situation. It's not that I don't trust anyone, I just don't trust anyone enough I guess. Crying over something can make me feel better but I don't even feel like crying over whatever happened. Hmm.. So I'm stuck. There's no way left except for sleeping. haha..

Or youtube would be good! =D

Vocal

I can't take my ears off this song, the acoustic version. Their vocals are........ WOW! How many times have I watched this video? Countless times. And I won't deny that they are cute la. haha!! 

So enjoy!!

Happy

I'm just so free these days. I go to work in the morning, and I'll be home by noon. Now I really have my own time to do my own things. The last semester gave me so much pressure, and I'm glad it's over. There's pros and cons. I have my own time but I have been thinking about the stuffs that I placed aside for so long. And I realized that it's better if I'm kept busy, I would prefer to be physically tired and stressed up rather than to have heartache.

Anyway, I was talking to some elderly people. I think they are the best people to talk to, they made me happy, although not all the time. They always remind me about how we always make simple things complicated in life. I'm still trying to apply all these facts into my life. I just want to be happy! =)

Wake Up Call

Doing something that I feel like doing is better than doing something because I have to do it. This afternoon, suddenly I felt like reading the Bible. I've set a goal ever since I sat for my last paper, which is "I WANT TO BE KNOWLEDGEABLE". I know it's actually very difficult but I believe in taking one step at the time, and as long as I do my best, I'll be satisfied. Back to the Bible, I thought maybe I should start all over again, so I read a few chapters from the book of Genesis. *Ting* I somehow managed to understand, unlike before when I find it so difficult to understand even a single line. It's amazing, I've never felt like this. Maybe it's my perception la, I always thought that my English is way to broken for my age. Or maybe I read just because I had to read. I'm not sure but all I know is that the purpose isn't right. But now I'm sure that my purpose is to gain knowledge.

Recently, a friend asked me "Isn't God supposed to be your main purpose in life?". Honestly, I didn't feel good about that. Actually the reason why I decided to stop attending church is because I couldn't find what I was looking for and it's meaningless. I believe there is a God, but the question is which God do I believe in? I don't know. I hope I'm not being ridiculous but I'm currently in the state of confusion. Each time when someone invites me to church, I'll have all the negative thoughts. I guess I'm just paranoid? I need people that would leave me the way I'm and stop pushing me to do anything. There's no room for pressure.

Anyway, I have been going out lately, at least once a week to meet my friends. At least there's some improvements. =D Now I'm the one planning for the yum cha session. Haha! It's payback time I guess since I've been hiding at home before that. I really hope that I can remain like this. But it's hard to say la, "old habits die hard".. 

=)

Someone once told me friends are meant to be used. We are being used or we use. Well, it's all up to us to decide. =) BUT, finally, I felt the love that friends could offer, and how happiness is contagious. Maybe I have forgotten the feeling, since I haven't been watching movies for so long. Yesterday I watched a movie with my friends and I have never been that grateful watching a movie. I look to my left and look to my right, and see people that I appreciate sitting beside me. Even though I was feeling gloomy but I was comforted by their presence. I felt warm when I was out in the snow. I like this feeling. No matter what happens, it's still the love of family and friends that could heal all wounds. They are my best medicine.

I never thought that I could get the truth so soon and so easily, and the truth hurts. But it's okay, I would rather it be this way.

Invaluable

Missing someone is so hard to bear, especially when I don't have the courage to even drop that someone a message. I miss my friends. I miss high school friends, though I'm not close to most of them. I hope there's gatherings and parties so that I can meet them. Everyone is out there busy with their work, studies, some even settled down. I know I haven't done anything, I seldom call my friends but that doesn't mean I don't miss them, instead I think of them a lot lately.

Today is the last day of college for me. I'm missing my college friends already. I'm just missing everyone that I can think of. Everyday I'm living in my own world, trying to graduate. I neglected my friends and still neglecting them. I'm so sorry.. Please give me a little more time. Thank you for not giving up on me. I appreciate it...

The better part of one's life consists of his friendships.

Abraham Lincoln

A Step Forward

Everyone will have their good times in life. And everyone will be given a chance. It's whether you choose to grab it or let it pass you by. That's when you have to decide to take a step forward. Some decisions are hard to make but it has to be made at the end of the day. I'm very sure that I've made my choice and I'm going to do it right to give me a better future. It's not going to be easy but I hope I won't give up half way. =)

I have cleared another 2 papers and that left me with 6 more before I'm over with studies. I have been really busy for a month and this week I'm finally finding some free time but this is not going to last long. I haven't really meet up with any friends. I haven't have the time to catch up with Clement, I guess his doing good in aussie from his facebook pictures. And I didn't have the time to meet Minee when she's back. I'm fully occupied with classes during weekends. Hopefully I will be able to see her the next time she comes back!

Okay that's all for now! I'm too lazy to type more. Haha!!

Really talented boy!

No Promises

 

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Adam Lambert's 29th Birthday!!!!!

He a person with a beautiful voice, look, and smile! =D

So stay healthy and happy!!

You will always be the best singer in my heart!

I wish you all the best in your career, produce more albums and win more awards!

I'll always support you!

Take care!!

*HugGsSssss*

If I Die Young

Clement told me about this song! Very nice country song! But I'm feeling happy and sad listening to it. =')

December, A Beautiful Month

Yesterday was someone's bigday!! A beautiful, friendly and wonderful daughter, wife and absolutely a great mother!! Happy Happy Birthday!!! And she is.........

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My dearest mumy and her younger daughter!!!
Love you!!



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Okay, that's me in the picture!! haha!!!

Mum looked about 50% (of course she's prettier!) like what I look now when she was my age and on the left is really my lil sister!!! haahahhahaa.. So, just look at me and you'll see her when she was younger..

Okay, I'm still stuck with Adam Lambert. I'm not sure how many times have I watched, and still watching his music videos, interviews, performances and American Idol journey, etc. Each time I passed by shops like Speedy, I'll still have the thoughts of buying his album. I think it's still selling since he's still not done with the tour.

I'll be kinda busy next whole week. My cousins from Melaka are here. They will be staying at my place for about a week. I will be taking them to places that they haven't been before. And Minee's farewell party will be tomorrow. I can't wait to help but I don't know what to help. =) Christmas Musical will be on Thursday and Friday. It's really gonna be a busy week but I'm definitely gonna like it. Can't wait for Christmas!!

Grenade

Very nice song!

Message To A Friend..

It's December!! Few more weeks to go before the year ends!! I will be going to Kuantan. =) I'm glad that I found another good friend.

BUT BUT BUT.. No matter what, no matter how good is that person, there's always someone that is beyond compare. She is...

*tada*

It's gonna be 10 years in just a few months time. WOW!! We are friends for 10 beautiful years!!! I really don't remember when we first met but I was really comfortable talking to her and I liked her. =D I remembered how I had to sneak out my bedroom in the middle of the night just to talk to you on the phone. hehe! And how you got stung by bees because of my crush! And how you pointed to me the shows you wanted to watch in Speedy so that I could borrow them for you!! haha!!!! Love those memories!

When we were younger

You will be leaving to Singapore in a few weeks time. The time is about to come. I don't like saying goodbyes but I have to. So this is the time, I need to learn. =) Singapore is very near, it's not about the distance. What makes me sad is my lifestyle. You are not gonna be there to go out with me or call me from time to time. Itulah.. Before that I took you for granted and now I'm regretting my actions. Okay la actually I didn't take you for granted, just that I'm very laid-back but I'm aware that you are always around me, I'm aware of everything you did for me. I really do!! Woish.. Sounded like my lover!! haha..

"If I'm not a girl (cos I don't want you to be a guy..), I'll definitely, 202%, confirm go after you!!!"

Honestly, you made me understand the quality and the importance of friendship. I'll never ever want our friendship to end. NEVER!!! I never thought that someone like me will ever find a true friend. But God is good! =D do you know why I appreciate you so much?? It's because you never gave up on me. You could have stop contacting me 3 years ago since I didn't care, but you didn't. Am I that attractive?? Why didn't you give up? hahahha!!!

Singapore is so near, I'll make sure I visit you, I promise!! I'm not sure where will you be heading to after Singapore. But I wish you all the best in your career!! I'm very sure you will be someone in future!! I hope that you will lead a happy life and find your other half that will be able to give you all the happiness and comfort! =D

Typing this post made me wanna cry! T_______T hhaahha!!

Kuantan Trip

Hello.. I'm back!! Back from Kuantan.

Rebecca!

The trip was awesome!!! I took some pictures. But I gotta warn you here that the quality of the pictures are bad cos I captured all of them with my phone, only 2 megapixel.. =/  Lemme start from the train station. I took a train and get down at KL Central station. From there I took Monorail to Titiwangsa station. There's where the bus station is situated, it's called Pekeliling Bus Station. I was afraid to miss the bus, since it's my first time travelling alone to another state, so I woke up at 6.30am. I reached to the bus station at 8.45am and waited until 10.30am. haha!!! For the 1 hour and 45 minutes, I walked around with my heavy bag pack. So that's how backpacking felt like. Tiring...!!! haahahahaa!!!

This is gonna be a long post. So just sit back and relax!

After about 4 hours, I finally arrived!!! I'll jump straight to dinner!! Rebecca's dad took me to a nice place for dinner, it's at the beach. Very romantic atmosphere. Anyone wanna get married?? I suggest that you have your wedding dinner there. hehe!! There's only one problem, the place is just a restaurant size. Not big enough to even fit 100 person. It's too small!! I don't know the place name. =8 but it's okay, Rebecca's dad knows. Just let me know if you are interested!! haaaaahahaha!! The food there was good. The tom yum there was the best!!! Very spicy!!

The place is pretty right???



Do you know what's the best thing about Kuantan?? It's the beach!! I went to Teluk Cempedak beach for 3 times in 5 days.

Ms. Rebecca taught me. haha!!!!

Ms. Rebecca taught me too! =D

Walking to Teluk Cempedak 2, another side of the beach.

Teluk Cempedak 2.

I also went into a hotel. The christmas decoration was so nice. Lights and christmas tree everywhere.

That's about it. It's a good trip. Kuantan is a very peaceful place. The air is fresh.

I had a bad bad sick in Kuantan and it lasted until now. On the 4th day, I kept on vomiting until I had no more stength to walk. I'm not exaggerating okay!! haha!! And I felt like vomiting each time I talk or walk faster. Sound so stupid right? I was extremely slow. ahahaaaaahahahah! I was so sick until Rebecca's dad had to take me to the doctor. The journey back from Kuantan to KL was torturing. I vomited before I board the bus, vomited in the bus and vomited when I reached KL. haahha!!! But I think it's a good experience though! hehe!! Thank God for sustaining me. He gave me strenght to pull through the 4 hours journey and luckily I didn't vomit when I was in the train back home.

Anyway, I'm glad I'm home now. Back to my family and friends. I missed my family and Minee.. =D

By the way, I did a live sketch!! hehe.. Finally I tried. I got backache man!!!

Kuantan!!! Here I come!

Financial accounting was tough! Law was confusing!! Argh!!! But whatever. I'm not gonna think about it anymore. I'M GOING KUANTAN TO MEET MY FRIEND THAT I HAVEN'T MET FOR 11 MONTHS on friday!!! Yay!! I can't wait to go to the beach.. I'm so exited. I'm done with packing and I'm all ready to go!!!! Happiness.. I have already bought the ticket to Kuantan. It's one way. I'm gonna go and not come back!! Since city life sux! I'm just gonna stay there until forever!

Byeeeeeeee everyone. Mum, dad, my brothers, and sister. And Minee, Alvin, Pui Yan, Clement, Andy, Christine, Beatrice, Gwen, Hong Sheng and all of you!! Bye.. Don't miss me.. I will take good care of myself!! Nola. haha!! I'll be there until maybe Monday! Then my friend will be coming over to my place for about 3-4 days. Nice rite?? hehe!!!

Anyway I watched Rapunzel today!! Nice nice movie! I really love fairytale stories cos everyone and eveything are so perfect. And of course it always end happily. : )

Minee will be coing back on Sunday! Can't wait. But I don't think I can meet her until thursday cos my Kuantan friend will be staying at my place. I'll be taking her out since it's gonna be her first time here. I gotta take good care of her for that few days. haha!!!!

By the way, I heard that Kuantan is famous for its salted fish!! haha!!

I'm Scared

Very scared!! I'm very scared. Exam is just 2 days away. T______T

I went through the past year paper just now, and I felt like this exam will be super difficult. I can't believe I'm feeling like that now. I'm supposed to be calm. Gone la!! Gone... Help! Help!! Today and tomorrow will be plain torture!!

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If Adam isn't homosexual, I won't be interested in him. If he is straight, he is no different from any ordinary guy!! Then he'll be another hot and talented artist! Boring.. I wouldn't say that he'll definitely be like that forever, because miracle happens!! But knowing that he's currently not interested in girls feels good cos jealousy will never take place, at least not in my life. Jealousy kills! I know my life is not gonna be miserable if he has a boyfriend in future. Ahahahahhahhah!!

Suddenly I feel like getting his album again, now there's acoustic version already. Hmmmm.. I gotta really think bout it.

Love The Way You Lie (Part 2)

I found the nice one!! So I deleted the last post.. hehe! Hopefully they won't block this video.

Enjoy!