I'm Scared

Very scared!! I'm very scared. Exam is just 2 days away. T______T

I went through the past year paper just now, and I felt like this exam will be super difficult. I can't believe I'm feeling like that now. I'm supposed to be calm. Gone la!! Gone... Help! Help!! Today and tomorrow will be plain torture!!

AdamAdamAdam

If Adam isn't homosexual, I won't be interested in him. If he is straight, he is no different from any ordinary guy!! Then he'll be another hot and talented artist! Boring.. I wouldn't say that he'll definitely be like that forever, because miracle happens!! But knowing that he's currently not interested in girls feels good cos jealousy will never take place, at least not in my life. Jealousy kills! I know my life is not gonna be miserable if he has a boyfriend in future. Ahahahahhahhah!!

Suddenly I feel like getting his album again, now there's acoustic version already. Hmmmm.. I gotta really think bout it.

Love The Way You Lie (Part 2)

I found the nice one!! So I deleted the last post.. hehe! Hopefully they won't block this video.

Enjoy!

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Mission failed. I slept right after I was done with the last post! haha!!! I couldn't resist the bed, with the perfect nice and cold weather to sleep. I'm not sure how long I slept but the flu was gone once I woke up, I guess it's the effect of the medicine + sleep! =D I'm still tired now, so I guess I will be able to get a good night sleep later.

Guess what? I just signed up for a tweeter account earlier. Why? To stalk Adam Lambert. Haha!! Actually nola, I just wanna get his updates. I'm not sure whether is it really him but I guess it can't be wrong. Two weeks ago, I read this megazine about him attacking paparazzi, and what he tweeted after that. It's exactly the same. So bolehlah, should be correct. Something I don't like about facebook, friendster, or anything that can connect people on the internet. People tend to pretend to be someone else by creating an account using the names of others. I'm not sure about twitter cos I only used it less than 24 hours. So no comment. I haven't tweeted anything and I guess I won't cos I only want updates.

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Music

I'm not interested in facebook la. I'm bored of it. Nothing to see and I feel like it's some small kid thing. Every minute someone post something up but I barely see any lines that could capture my attention. Sien.. I have switched channels. No more onlining, chatting and checking out on people. Now I'm a big fan of 92.9, which is hitz.fm.. =D Music, music and music! Maybe it's because the songs nowadays are good!! I remembered there was once almost all the songs on radio tortured my ears.

I was stressed until I no longer feeling the stress. hehe! Now I'm waiting for exam. I haven't finish studying but it's okay, I have 3 more weeks. I'll study and absorp what I can. When I feel like sleeping, I sleep. When I feel like watching tv, I watch. I'll do what I feel like doing. No pressure! This saturday a couple is getting married in church. Congratulations Theva&Wensue!!!! 3rd wedding for the year.

Nelly - Just A Dream

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I feel like shit all the time. When I'm at home, I feel like shit. When I'm out, I feel like shit.. I think just sit at the doorstep la. Even at the doorstep I feel like shit. When I eat I feel like shit, when I look into the mirror, lagilah I feel like shit. But there's only one time I don't feel like shit. It's bedtime. Mum says I'm too free, and the rest of my friends say I stay at home too much. What am I gonna do?? When I'm at home, I don't feel like studying, I'm feeling like that since the past 2 weeks. That basically means I haven't been studying for 2 straight weeks. Actually nola, I did read 3 pages of financial accounting and 4 pages of law. I remember cos it's past year questions. And when I'm out, I'm worry about studies. I feel like going out but I don't feel like living home. Oxymoron.

Almost everything make me feel like shit. I know la, cannot be healed. Aih.. Gotta live with it. Someone once wrote something to me. "Everyone has his BURDEN.. What counts is how you CARRY it!" Yeah, I know I'm no different from a piece of shit. That line, very true but it didn't help. I'm extremely afraid of failing exams but I can't focus. It has been so many years since I last felt like that. I was from 5. That time I didn't know how to study and pass physics anymore until I'm so afraid to go sit for the exam in school (thank God it's not SPM). In the end I still went and I still failed, the only time I passed physics was SPM though. I will never forget the moment when my physics teacher announced "Semua lulus Fizik kecuali Gwynne Kong!" I really felt so embarrast. That explains how stupid I am when it comes to something that requires full understanding and numbers. That's how I felt each time I tried to study financial accounting. Terrible! Horrible!

Anyway, about Adam Lambert. He's so perfect to me. Very charming. He has talent too, nice voice and he can reach an amazingly high note as a guy. Go listen "What Do You Want From Me" or American Idol 2009 if you want prove! The fact that he's a gay attracts me more. I like you because you are gay, Adam, and I like you more because you are proud of it!!!! He's the hottest gay anyway! =D Now I know how it feels like to have an idol. 3 of his songs are stucked in my head "What Do You Want From Me", "For Your Entertainment" and "If I Had You". I'm crazy!! I watched this 3 music videos for, I don't know how many times and I'll still be watching them. I like him so much but I know I'll never own him. NEVER! He can influence me, for example to wear eyeliner. That's idol. That's how it feels. It's not a good thing but what to do, I'm in!! Now I want his album. Crap, I'm back to teenage life! So now all the high school stuffs came back!